Sober New Year's Eve

My first sober New Years Eve circa 2012 and only about 4.5 months into my recovery. That first year was was hard AF and I mean AS FUCK!

This picture came up on my memories and it instantly took me back to that night and those feels. I ate my feelings that evening, was ridden with anxiety, had FOMO, was sad I wasn’t drunk(yep), cried but also had a moment of clarity at dinner where I thought man this isn’t so bad and this is going to just be my new normal, life without dirty martinis and blackouts. I was a mess that evening cause NYE is one of my favorite holidays and I had to grieve how I once spent it doing the same thing for 10 years. Grieve it.. cry, yell, laugh, be angry! It’s a healthy process and one you must do, to let it go and embrace the new life that is at your door step.

I’m grateful for these memories cause it really makes you see how far you have come mentally.

It doesn’t matter what day it is, everyday is the perfect day to say NO to the cycle of addiction and start living the life you are meant to live. If you are struggling today, reach out! I’m here and totally get all the crazy feels.

Happy New Year! 2019 is going to be a time.

Xoxox,

CMA