Happy 5th Birthday to ME

My favorite day of the year is here!! I love this day more than my birthday, the Oscars, Sundays or any major holiday. I'm 5 today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 I made the decision to stop the madness on 8/18/12  and make a choice to live a life of love, light, and freedom five years ago today. Which is exactly the opposite of what I was living for a decade of my active addiction with alcohol? I still allow myself to feel that morning cause that is a place I never wish to go back to. Was it a scary thought to think of a life without the booze?? YES, of course!! It took me two years to settle fully in my sober life and feel comfortable in my own skin. I had to relearn how to live again, relearn how to cope and just be without booze. Thru these years and the process of recovery I have learned, I'm much stronger than I ever thought, the world is truly my oyster and I am extremely powerless over alcohol and that is OK!! Doesn't make me a freak show or less than anyone. The heavy burden that was once in my daily life blocking me from the life I knew I wanted and deserved is no longer there and I'm living that life I once dreamed of being free from shame, guilt, darkness, and despair. When I'm asked how have I stayed sober, the answer is simple, I don't want to die. My addiction is a matter of life and death and I will always choose life!! If I pick up the bottle again, goodnight sweet prince...it's true y'all. The Recovery road is not an EASY one, you really do have to put the work in daily but as time goes on it gets easier and becomes just a way of life. I do promise you with all my heart and soul, that recovery is WORTH IT and for anyone who is struggling reach out for help, there is always someone there for you. I'm HERE always. Recovery is a WE thing, I wouldn't be here today without the love and support from my husband, family, and friends!! To the Recovery community, I just adore and love you all. So much strength, beauty, and talents come out of sobriety/recovery. You all are such an inspiration to me, so thank you to ALL!! 

Sober is the new everything, take it one day at a time and always know that WE DO RECOVER!!!! #celebraterecovery